SHIFTED

Revamp.

I know this space is getting no where but boring. Having the thought of giving a revamp or should i just change a new space, like again? Suggestionsssss.

xoxo.
time to sleep

Proper.

Blogger kinda f-up lately.

just as you guys know, my internet's back again. talking about that i feel so retarded. my router wasn't exactly down, the only thing that i did was to plug it back then it works. how stupid of me to cut myself away from internet for monthsss.

My co workers are all really nice people & i really enjoy working there. Ann Siang feels so much like a second home , just another family. We laugh, gossip and FB together everyday. Cant bear to let paige back to school and goes to ION thou.

Company dinner last weekend, the food wasn't exactly good but the company was great , minus that moon pressence. I have a cool boss which drink and play 7-up with us.

Pictures not totally up. Check out more at my FB.

My super handsome and cute boss with alex.



xin fu mummy



my wonderful table of joy.



paige the prawn peeler. she stole the prawn eye and make them her ear-ring. anyhoot, i love her still (:



Jason sad face, cos he couldn't take any thing with diary product. But eventually, he stuff himself with 2 waffles and ice cream, cheesecake and more dessert.



sex dessert, especially the peanut choco cup (:



WAFFLES WITH MAPLE WALNUT ICE CREAM THE SEX !!



Eat and eat more waffles.



The happy ann siang family without germaine.



The aftermathe. Full tum tum and a messy table.




More photos will be upload here when i save them from FB.

PS. Im attach to noona my new pup (:

xoxo

Pain.

Mind in a whole big mess right now, unable to think straight, those hands struggling me/us/all of us. Each day, it just gets more & it just get more our of hand. Everything that happens seems to be outta my/our control. Why is all these things happening , when all of us are as close as one. This is seriously making me & my family break down.

Got a call at 2340, it was from my elder cousin. Her condition seems to worsen and mom rushed down to the hospital with her. Let her be well , please. And dad says my uncle have got to go for a check up on the 30th, which most likely he gotta get an op as well. Second aunt health aint going right either.

A new member joined my family few days & yes thats little noona. A mixed maltese shitzu. She's just wayy to cute, bringing joy to every corner of the house. But unfortunatly, due to some reasons, my parents might just have to send her off. Tears flow down, no matter how i begged them, they seems rather firm with this decision. Sigh, its like she's a part of me alr. I dont want her to leave me.

I feel like dying, just get me outta this place.

Real.

Read through my past entires and past journal, seeing how true i once was and how surface i am journaling now. Feels different, i can no longer feel the soul of me , neither could i recongise which is the real me. Am i always a happy person or a sad person. This, so far is the hardest question.

Every bad will have its good coming but this phrase doesnt happen on me. Good things never comes my way, instead it always happens on the evil land. Karma.

Caught ' Ghost of MY Girlfriends Past ' last night, it reminded so much of x and the words Eu told me. Is it true that they're afraid of losing the one they love hence for their bastards ways of handling things? Yesterday night, my heart is once filled with question marks.

Unhappy stuff aside, sis brought a pup home. (:

xoxo

Easter Egg.

I feel like an egg recently, 've been having too much egg & egg related product. The egg tarts over at my workplace is such sex that i must have one everyday. You can have it either pipping hot for the oven where the egg fillings are watery or chill it in the fridge. WOW! and i've been asking mummy to fry me egg or noodle with extra egg. soon i'll turn from () to ( ).

This place lacks of visuals & how terrible can it get when i myself finds my blog boring. I ought to do something to my router, it's collecting dust already. Ah, as well as the digital cam, soon al the warrenty gonna be over & daddy's gonna nag at me. Phone bills have yet settle, sigh now you know why growing up is such a chore? When you have to settle every single thing yourself, plan the time well and get everything working right.

Things aint going on track for me, but as bad as it seems im trying hard to piece every little thing together. Sucha bad times for the family & myself but we all still have to breath it through with a smile whether we like it or not. The other night had me seeing my mum cry, telling me things which made my heart aches a million times for her. That night, i didnt slept well. Im such a spoilt brat. Everyday i see myself getting more and more worthless and useless, my surrounding people, aged 21 feels so different from me. They have a stable job, can drive and can have everything but for me, its just me and my refelction. . . Sometimes i wonder how can i land myself in such a terrible mess.

After yesterday night sup with the working mate, i've decided that i need to slim down. Recents binging have cause a terrible outbreak on me. :/ 39KG 39KG here i come.

I miss the girlfriends ALOT.

xoxo.
muff.E

3 layer

This page seems so dead, no one's tagging at all :( Who's even watching this space still man.

I've started working already & i love my job (: Thou the pay is not high at all but the environment and people are simply so nice and fun to mingle with. anw, Fred Perry's having clearance slaes over at the cathay, up to 70%, very worth it, check it out muffins.

Something really horrible is happening, after soooo long, i can now feel 3 layers tumtum! just imagine how horrible it is, i should stop taking food thats high in sugar and oil ! Dont tell me that i didnt gain weight cos i did! Target, to lose 3 kgggggg.

Butter with the secondarys tmr, hope it'll be much better than Phuture Phu's not the place to visit anymore, so many young punks, ahahaha.

I miss alot of people, like ALOT.


PS. please drop money from the sky / fuck the bastard

xoxo.
muffin.E

Forgive.

The entire chunk i typed 's gone, great.

I wish i could see her in real & freaking hell give her a tight slap on her face. alright call me jealous or whatever shit. how can anyone say that they themself is hot/pretty/cute when the mirror crack upon their arrival ! which point of her was great, i dont get it. if the case that she's fucking rich, then fucking hell x can fuck some animal along the street. fuck!

pardon my lang but i had to vent this out. its totally unfair, it totally cheating! nothing about k if your thought it's about him. today i thought i learn to forgive and forget but apparently i couldnt. but, the picture make me know how great i am as a person without those people around. FAKES.

anyway, i love my job so far (: the people are fun loving and great, hope this job last thou.

lonely-ness been following me these days, cant help but feel ultra useless. thank god for the breastfriend and ah pui. afterall friends are just free words.

I Thought.

I've officially graduate from Nanyang Poly, well another phrase ofmy life completed. Throughout these 3 wonderful years in school, i've learnt things which i never once i would knew and develop interest in. There i met the most wonderful classmates and cliques which never fails to be there and cheer me up. There where i fall badly in relationship and then learn to stand up from. There where i've made bad decisions & then learning from it. There were i met someone and ended the journey together with graduation. So much memories, i wish time would move slower.

PS. Pictures will be up soon i promise, internet's still a whore.

Tmr im gonna officially be the society slave. It's how funny that i badly wanted a job and then after i sign the appointment letter i began to regret. I couldn't see my future and what i really wanna be. This makes me feel like the most useless person on earth, living each day with no aims & getting emotional over the slightest things ever. I was never a big planner, i wanna earn money the easiest way and the fastest way which we all knew it's never this logic. I'll see where tmr brings me to and shall decide something.

For the past week, i haven been feeling good or right. I tried so hard to keep myself busy so that i wouldnt think of things which i aint suppose to dwelling over for. Apparently it all fail, times when im alone, times where the house sounded too quiet, thoughts just keep coming into my mind. So many why(s) but no answer. I lied about being strong, i lied about everything to make me seems im strong, i aint as strong as what it appear to be. Each time i thought he's out, he'll appear.

xoxo.
Eileen

hollywoods.

back from Thailand back to reality, hello i am back.

all the cheap shopping(s), food & massage have ended, missing it alr :/ The land of smile never fails to make me the happiest person, thou it gets dangerous at night but everything there is just great. Love the trip with the gang of endless laughters. Pictures update soon (:

My elder cousin have completed her op, she got her big tumor removed (: Things aint as bad as what we thought anymore, now the only wish we all had is for her to continue fight hard against cancer. We all love her.

My aunt's company finally wanna hire me but i've alr got a job :/ which is better. Sigh

I hope it's never too late to wake up from my dreammm.

PS. Saturday girlfs night with ah pui (: *mwah

xoxo

Jetting Off.

Jetting off in less than 48hours time, instead of feeling as excited as im suppose to be. Here i am having a rather mixed feelings.

Humans are so fragile when it comes to fighting against illness. My elder cousin was diagnose with last stage cancer on saturday morning. This news came far too much of a surprise to me, my family and my extended family. Even thou we were all laughing over at aunt's place happily having our usual family outing but as each and everyone stepped out of her house, tears would just fall. We all could call and cry how unfair it is for someone like her to have such a illness for she doesnt smoke nor drink and for her entire life, she hasn't lead a blissful life. But nothing could make us change the fact. All that we can pray for is a miracle for her to live longer and her will to overcome this major war. Nothing i could do to help make her and all of us feel better, the only that i can help out a little was prolly help bring my little nephew home from school so long time allows.

She's gonna have her operation this friday which is also the day that i'll be jetting off. I really hope everything will goes on smoothly for her. Im feeling very guilty for not being able to be here for her. :(

I cant continue my post anymore.

PS. Please get her well, we all wanna see her strong still.

LIAR.

" No matter how strong a person is, they're afraid of facing the truth. " This sentence brought me out of my own denial of me desperately wanting a answer from x. It made me realize, no humans are strong, we all have a strong & a weak side. Each time i decided to take step back, i'll find myself taking two steps forward. Be it i get pushed away once again or not, i still moved forward. Then to find myself falling deeper into something which i'll never get anything out of it. Why cant i let this go, why cant i be who i once was , this question just kept repeating itself in me.

No one ever owns anyone a explaination i know, especially when both aint related in anyway. But ignorance to the surrounding wont do much help either, it'll only get either one party badly or both party hurt. It doesnt hurt to tell the truth i suppose, or is it all humans are selfish, wanting to keep the best side of them to the others? Or maybe karma's getting one me.

Once a girl love, she love with her whole heart & once a guy lie, he too lie with his whole heart.

If anyone could shake me up from this dream that i've dreamt too far.

xoxo.
poptartz.

super power

If only i can have one super power in which i could heal myself , in fact all humans needs that. It rather funny how i could advise others so well but couldn't tell myself to be strong like how i tell the others. Hmmm.

xoxo,
superhero

weak.

Does one have to pay for trust? I've always thought trust is a mutual thing, happened between two person, that is should be gain & gradually increase as the level of understanding between two person increase. Now, that so much have been place upon my eyes, i've came to realize just how weak & sham f/s could be. How each indivdual motive bring each and every of us to a higher state. Things were alot simple when we were young, was it all because we were much unaffected & green back then. Skeptical & leery people surrounding me is making me breathless, too much brain cells dying thinking what motive could each have & what are the outcomes would be. Way too much for one to handle & i feel really weak from everything recently.
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Those point aside, H1N1 have amazingly spread to the land of smiles, howwwwww great. Seriously hope the person would recover fast & stop the spreading would stop else all of us would be in health danger. Cant wait for departure with the gang, i know we would all have so much fun.

I've been drinking at least one yakult each day , i dont understand why cant they make Yakult in a bigger bottle so it will be enough for me. Rarr!

Here's one picture before you guys forget how i look now.



PS. I grew very tired from everything , im giving up every single things. F/S isn't all that i need really, i live better alone. I know.

xoxo,
Eileen

Im drafting my birthday post already, soon i will have it up here. Tons of photos to be uploaded to here and FB but internet's a bitch at home.

We'll be expecting a new member to the house this coming July, hopefully she'll be good. I will have mine after my sister move out, meanwhile cant wait for the little things arrival.

Days haven been too well, i've been rotting too much to a extend im growing side ways and even my sister is rushing me for a job interview. Sigh, growing up is such a chore.

anw, i love my girls. lim pui pui, party party soon, see you on thursday to pour my heart out la. haha.

ps. growing up and letting go is what i hate most.

xoxo.
eileen

是和你爱得人在一起比较幸福，
还是和爱你的人在一起比较幸福呢?

我辜负了他但他仍然对我付出一百分。
他的改变大家都看见了，唯有我。

我不想做出错得选择，但是，
是否太迟了?

I've lost the motivation to blog , no ones tagging.
&
I've lost the trust in manys.
21 i see things from a clearer view.

Thankyou friends.

twenty-one

I've got to apologise for the lack of updates and visuals. Reason being , my wireless router's down which result in not being able to log in to the net with my lappy. The only way to log on to the net was through this shoddy desktop. i'll get my router fix soon, so meanwhile, pardon for all the mudane entries.

25th April.
Thanks to all who came down for the celebration and for those who aint there, you owe me a BIG one. I wouldnt say that the party was a blast cos i seriously failed being a host. Didnt manage to keep everyone entertain & most of the time i myself was lost and stuck not knowing what to do. Now i know running a party is never easy. Still, a big thank you to all those who was there and the left overs for counting down my birthday with me. And most importantly, i really ought to thank my family for making this entire thing work out, especially my dad & elder sister.
PS. Eunice Yong, you watch out during yuor 21st!!

26th April.
Maternal relatives threw a BBQ birthday celebration for my younger cousin and I. Accompany was great as well as the food (: Felt really loveeeeeeeee.
Night was over at Ju's place then to the airport for the arrival of Ju's return from LA. I thought the gang had come up with a birthday surprise upon reaching Ju's place as the door was close & even more strange when cw open the door and the rest was not around. I could still remember clearly that , i opened Ju's room door with great anticipation and anxiety, to my huge SURPRISE, they were all either sleeping or using the com -.- all along i was carrying too high hopes !! HAHA.
So we left to fetch for Ju. And to my HUGE HUGE HUGE GREAT GREAT GREAT SURPRISE, there was a HELLO KITTY HUGE BALLON IN NESH CAR !! :D Thankyou guys for giving me sucha sweet surprise when the clock strike 12 to 27th april. Luv you guysss to bitsssss.

We then became 'ninjas' at the airport for Ju's arrival , back home and collected our GOODS.

I enjoy my birthday thou nothing great or big happen but im really thankful to those who in a way or another wish me and celebrated my birthday for me. (: 21's the turning point for most people or i would rather say everyone. Key to freedom is what we all knew & true enough we all got to be responsible young adults by now and being independent. Seriously, i hate growing up. Now i've got a burden of paying phone bills myself and school fees myself ): stillllll, i can deny the fact that im 21. RARR!

I have a good friend and she have date phobia -.- GIRL PLEASEEEEEEE GET SOME GUYS ELSE YOU GONNA REMAIN ON THE SHELF FOREVER. but i envy your such character ):

PS. Lately i've not been feeling the Eileen in me.

xoxo.
21 old muffin

How is it possible to have a terrible heartache and feeling extremly happy at the same time?

Those minutes worth of conversation, prolly one i treasure most. Humans never change, they'll only realize things when its gone. I cant deny that.

You, keeps me going on strong,
Your leaving left me handicap.

Better In Time

Problems never seems to stop coming, worn out but fred not, Eileen's well prepared to fight this problem war(s).

21 will be the turning point, it willllllllll.

Im getting fatter each day ): time for diet but its only 4 days to my 21st, how to slim down?!

PS. Sorry if i haevn been replying texts. Its just not the time for me.

xoxo,
KC

How True

Taurus - Wednesday, April 22

" Sometimes your life is an open book, and you expect the same from others. Don't be discouraged if you are not being told the whole story. Someone may be trying to protect your feelings. "

I would rather hear the whole story than only knowing the comforting part. It'll be easier to brave through all the aches knowing the truth rather than living in the thoughts of what good will tmr bring. We've been fighting too hard for nothing, pride took us no where.

I grew out of the fantasy world, i realize my mistake but it was all too late.

" The bravest thing that men do is love women "
-Mort Sahl

Turning 21 in just a few days time but luck doesn't seems to be on my side. Everything's not falling in place, it's just getting worst each day.

Been so long since i see myself dwelling over such issues, thinking that i've grow up, wouldn't let such thing bring me down but again im brought to the bottom pit by those words that was convey to me. It didnt hurt so badly till the thought 'MIA' strike my head, it made me feel like a loser, a total idiot. Mistake i did, nothing could make up to it. I've tried my best, still it fails. Why such a joke on me when im less than a week from the i suppose to be happy day?!

I'll prove this whole thing wrong, but please dont ever torture me anymore god.

PS. I shouldnt even have text anyone if i knew there was not going to be any replies.

does rainbow exist,
peeping through the dark clouds.

YOU will be fine, i trust you.

Growing up's such a tiring chore. I never like changes, in any form in any way, i hate having to repeat the same ol' routine of adapting to the changes and such. stop the time from moving , someone.

I dont like the way i am now. . whats wrong with you health !

same ol' mistake

PS. Happy 20th Birthday Miss Regina Ang (: May all your wishes come true, mmmmwaaaah!

I sold my own conscious away since the start of the conversation between x & me. I was brought into this circle five months back, time flies. Without realizing im already five month into this life. This isn't the original me, neither did i like this version of me.

a thousand & one thing waiting for me to do, but here i am doing nothing. i have a choice but i choose to lay around and do nothing. the issue just add on to everything that's happening, i was at fault and i make my stand and apologise but nothing seems to help. i hate this, take it and get off eileen.

return the old eileen back someone,please.

xoxo

the path i chose

this decision i make , i wont regret. be it that its gonna be the hardest path ever. should it be the most hurtful decision ever, be toughest thing to do ever, i wont give up. i may break down endless time, nevertheless i hope all the hard work will pay out. please tell me it willl.

xoxo,
S.P of yours

99% of my life contain pretendious people, only 1% of them are true but i cant really tell who they are. those who were there to share my joy & hide when im at my worst, too many to be name. which is also the reason why i kept most things to myself. dont asked me why i choose to build a wall around me, cos you guys will never understand what it is like to have your enemy pretending as your best friend.

is it really that strike a balance between love & friends? does your world only spin for love?

M.K

LIVERPOOL WON 3 - 1 . Double thumbsup for the red army (: They never fails to start my day with a wide wide smile.

Finally hand in the relevent documents & got one burden off my shoulder. Hopefully i will be able to get in. Headed over to PS with masterP for dinner and foot massage. I have to change my body clock! & of cos drinking more water else im really gonna die at the age of 25. HAHA. MasterP got me a new friend, love it to max ! Thankyou PP.

Here meet my new cuddle cuddle.







Miffy Keleen. Such a dear isn't it? FYI, im a cuddle a tedy bear to sleep person.

I cant access the internet still with my laptop, anyone knows how to fix the router?!

Party with the secondary school friends & cousin tmr (:

xoxo,
M.K master

Hong Kong was FAB cept for the lodging & people there. Food & SHOPPING was the sex , totally (: Thou things are rather expensive as compare to BKK but its really worth it. The food was so great that i can hardly see my own toes now ): alright , time for diet diet diet !

How great that my router broke down at this time, so no photos for now !!

PS : I NEED DIET

xoxo

- 24 HOURS

Jetting off in less than 24 hours, very unprepared. Currency not change , things not pack & ive got to go for tuition later. But still very glad that finally im getting a get away from everything that's happening especially after yesterday night.

Tuition's a bitch, okay maybe only that primary 4 student of mine. She doesnt likes ting xie & cos i gave her ting xie she complain to her oh so dear-ly mummy and she stopped my tuition. Lets shall just see how her wonderful girl could survive without knowing what a computer in chinese at the age of 10. Kids these days are really hard to handle & so i need a job badly.

Finally i let down my pride last night & be my true self. PP seems to know how i feel & speak through my mind. I've always thought i could hold it well, little did i know i was that vunerable, she speak of that past and i couldnt stop crying. how uselesssssssss. ):

This get away would be good, i hope. To bring me far from this place , for me to decide what i really want. Things never comes my way. Everyone's working towards their success while im doing shit here. Why am i sucha useless person ? ):

I hate liars & i have to say this very CLEAR. If you ever wanna lie to me, at LEAST lie the clever way. Cos i aint as DUMB as what you thought i would be. Once you lie , you will NEVER be forgiven. Why do i always meet such LOSERS?!

I miss lowjiamin , limtingting, reginaang, chanpeiqi, wynneking, pprincess, ednachua , kaylylow, euniceyong and those im suppose to miss. wahahahahah

xoxo,
" mai dong xi xhi dong xi loh ! "

Night Like This

Haven been sleeping at the right timing , falling asleep only at wee hours and waking up less than eight hours later. Im tired , mentally tired & very much physically tired. How i wished i could really be the one who i protray to others and not the one that other dont see it.

Night like this makes me feel worthless , too many things surrounding my head and mind. Money issue 's driving me insane, i prolly make the worst mistake one month back. Relationship's on hold & i would say i love my life now despite i dont really have an answer to most question people promt me , and i really hope they could stop asking about it.

Sometimes i feel lonely or rather most of the time. I may be seems as a very busy person with endless people to meet but do i really want it that way? I envy those who have really great friends, being there for them and of cos giving them surprises. My birthday how many would even remember it , and the kind of surprises others are getting. It seems so much different. I know im sounding very emotional now , but i dont want to keep in inside anymore. Im bursting out any moments.

Everything is unfair, fuck.

Jetplane/Jetstar

Jetting off in 3 days time to " mai dong xi chi dong xi loh " (: Everyone 've been telling me about HongKong, even thou i've been there before but its making feel as thou it my first time there (: EGG-CITE-ED !

Finally some times for me to rest my mind & start deciding already.

Farewell pot-luck over at Ju place on sunday for Ju , Regina & now me as well. Celebrated Uncle's birthday as well. The potato salad was the SEX , wonder who made it. HAHAHAHA. Jon's a very good cook as well, the mee sua spag with beefy juicy pasta sauce was yum yum yum too (: Oh! Im improving in my guitar herooooo (:

Us, Uncle , The boys & The Girls (:

Thou its only a 4 days trip but im gonna miss you girls because its a different Sunday routine this week. Regina Ang remember my stuff from taiwan ah (: ENJOY YOURSELF. Pinko Chan please control your tears at the airport on Sunday k , i'll be back to resuce you on Monday night <3

My 21st in less than a month time, i haven got anything plan out yet cept for the chalet from ap. Thanks for the chalet (: Who to invite and who will come and what to do is killing me ): I need a birthday planner! anyone?

Since its like everyone will do a little wish list for their birthday, i shall do mine too (: heh.

1. Digital-IXUS-100 in GOLD or RED. OMG I LOVE THIS SOOOOO MUCH ):

2. A DSLR :/ or a semi-pro

3. A Yorky

4. BUCKAROOOOOS

5. Wallet ( Chanel , Prada , Miu Miu )

6. LOVE

Lastly , SLIM DOWN (:

Time for tuition -.-

xoxo,

Happy Muffin

the above is my favourite (: imagine non-stop combo talking hit throughout the entire day & laughing non-stop. the above is veru capable of doing so , no wonder she's 38 fu nu jie chairman. love you fatty. will update soooooon.

potluck was really potluck today & my entire tummy is going to explode plus the heavy dinner over at yishun. im gaining weight, time for diet !!

proper update will be done soon. on a very happy note ! HONGKONG THIS FRIDAY !

xoxo,
eileen

LOVE LOVE WEEK

Happiness does not always need to be created by others but oneself, i finally understand this.

Thou times may revert back to where i once spent those cloying days but nevertheless they're still sweet (: Being someone who never wants to step out of the comfort zone i love how this routine-like life is making me feel really comfortable, seeing the usual peoples every week just feels so right.

The other night, i steady-ly yadda Nesh xx , total cheapthrill & im improving already! I will soon get xx so i could yadda !! 8)
Yesterday night had the little W driving from the far away town all the way to Punggol & headed to airport for i-screamm! Surprisingly, no awkward moments instead endless topics that keeps the night going. She gave too many 'first time' to me.

Little things makes me feels contended recently. Girlfs & the boys are all i need, nothing else matters.
Now im anticipating tmrw date & Fridayyyyyy <3 Super love love week.


Sometimes i wish we had understand each other a little more, just that little more.

PS. Shawty/Ah Fat/Min/Serene , you guys better arrange a date to ask me out >:(
Shopping soon MJTAITAI.

xoxo,
Yours Truly

A secret person stays quietly behind that pair of eye, no one have ever come a inch close to her, prolly she hide too well and conceal way too well.

Still too early for everything to fall nicely in place, to predict the best outcome, to know whats best in time to come. & its too late to start putting everything back in place, pretending we could turn back time to where we once were. Too early to judge, too late to save.

I hate feeling dependent on someone cause i've never once been one. K taught me to be really independent and not rely so much on someone especially those with motive be it good or bad. He made me go through hell alone & i often blame him for leaving me alone but i know all his intention was good, to make me a stronger person. Right now, i still wanna be the same ol' independent one please dont try changing me and making me feel dependent.

PP's really right about making the right decision & i've an answer to my question already. I know happiness could be create alone & i will make it happen alone.

if only those memories captured could be erase, we would find it so much easier.
reluctant to step a step away cause we're both waiting for each other to make the first move,
when will the day come when happiness could surround us, especially you.

it was a wrong mistake we made on the 31st that year that time,
hard on you, hard on me, too hard to let this off even when everything's falling.

xoxo.
yours

everyone is getting a job except me, how not useless can i get.

THICK SKIN

YOU SHOULD STOP THINKING SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELF, REALLY! AND PLEASE STOP STOP TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT ME. I HATE THIS MAN.

YOURE A GUY WITH THE THICKEST SKIN EVER. REALLY, I SWEAR

041

I trim my own fringe yesterday because i didnt wanna waste 8buckies triming them & i think i did quite a good job in making my face look rounder. HAHA, no i did not have bangs, just trim.

im a few hours away from my new phone (: it better be a good one. X keep my fingers cross X
does anyone have secret remedy to smaller face? HEHEHEHE

Oh, i think i miss someone

Onion Mouth

my pocket's getting poorer each day, i need a sugar daddy. well, time for saving plan.

been shopping alot lately, seriously wonder how am i going to save enough for my 21st & get away trip. just yesterday few hours of shopping, i happily got home with two pair of cheap cheap & beautiful shoe , two pair of jeans & undergarments. so in total within three weeks, i've gotten myself four pair of shoe , four bottoms , many tops & yadda yadda. reckon i should head down to ikea & get a mini shoerack ( if they have ) & place it in my room already :/ Being a girl is such waste of buckies but i love being a girl (:

besides lookbook, ive discover another current favourite website (: http://looklet.com its something like polyvore but you get to wear the beautiful clothes on models (: but the choices of clothes aint as wide as polyvore thou.

tmr's my last day of work, time for job scouting but the economic is so bad how to get a job :/ ( spend lesser , spend lesser eileen ) pray hard that they're going to take me as a full time by next month else i'll really be very dryyyy. :(

two more days to the oh so wonderful big match (: cant wait to watch it! heh.

PS. i seriously detest guys that brag about themself to me, i find it sucha turn off. please stop those rubbish , really it's like a major turn offfff. no one cares about how rich you are or how f.handsome you are when you have got no character thats worth respecting.

xoxo,Leeny.F

Stevie.G

Tickets to BKK's like SGD165 only!! Im so tempted to book the tickets now & fly to the island of smile on my own since every body else couldn't decide whether to go anot :( I so badly wants a get away, just anywhere except sinapor.

Kay's back from cheeeeenanana & i went over to her crib yesterday for a suppose-to-be DVD watching night, but we ended up looking at her loots & stuff for me & vintageeee & packing her room & browsing lookbook. It was a relaxing night with the girl who's ever praising her boyf (: Ha. We're going to the thrift store & im feeling reallly excited thinking about it. HEHEHEHE. Oh, & i superb love the fringe skirt she got for me! Which sinapore is not having it. thankyou kay

On a happier note, LIVERPOOL WON 4 - 0 LASTNIGHT ! HEE. Stevie.G is waaaaayyyy too hot (: Tell me where to find such hot pie! All hyped up for saturday game!





've been really hooked on to lookbook recently, their fashions are whoa! my fav <3>




so pretay !



i want bangs like 'em ): but i never look good in them. man!






so luv her hair :/


I WANNA BE SKINNY ! AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR IT.








PS. Im leaving on Mon for a get away with limtingting (: CANT WAIT!!

xoxo

No. I Didnt Save

If i was given a whole life to tell lies,
I wouldn't choose to tell them on you.
But you just had to tell them to me.

We both are fighting for something which never once exist,
Then again i asked myself,
Why are we fighting for it?

If promises were meant to last for a lifetime,
You have never once made a single one to me before.

Love could taste the sweetest when it is at it's peak,
I have never taste 'em.

What's the point of telling me you miss me,When you try so hard to run away?

PS. I aint sad , simple do not understand those ironic actions from you.

Sometimes

Sometimes i wonder why cant we humans live alone , why does each & everyone of us needs a companion to feel better & good. At times i really love being along , shopping on my own & just being alone. Prehaps age's catching up with me or prehaps working have changed me somewhat somehow. Everyday i goes to lunch on my own , recce my workplace & shopping on my own. Its really relaxing thou i'll get strange stares from people. I guess now i really like time alone.

I feel ugly these days & i hate taking pictures. Those wrinkles & those double chin. cheeseeeee, i look so awful & so fat. :/ In all to say , i haven master the art of loving myself. I hate makeup but i've got no choice. Those zits are so annoying :/ last but least, i feel fat.

i miss times when i look so youthful & feel so love.

xoxo

Coffee Manic

Im comfirm chop chop allegy to coffee which sound totally strange, i know but its the truth. Rapid heatbeat follow by jelly feeling & giddy-ness would then follow :/ Go google allegy to coffee & you will get it.

Yesterday's retail therapy was great 8) Fruitful cheapsteal(s) but i couldnt find the jeans that could fit me & i really luv love the high wasited one. Ah teong(s) really flooding singhpor man, everywhere anywhere you could easily spot Ah teong -.- I wonder why do singhpor people love hiring 'em when their service & attitude smells like rotten balls. Most importantly the western/japanese/korean/what shit cooked by them doesn't taste nice at all & their manicure suck as well. Anw , feels really good to be out with someone who could understand you & able to make you laugh your lungs out kinda friend (: Thankyou ah for making me laugh so hard at the ugly slipper & also sharing with me your x-pri-ence.
The ugly slipper was really hilarious. Edna & I both went for pedicure by Ah teong & she wore heels so obviously she cant wear 'em & so they gave her this yellow paper-ish made slipper. I laugh till i almost collaps & in the end i wore 'em as well cause she said it was too ugly & so i let her wore my slipper instead. HAHA. Should have capture those slippers!!

Follow by popeye supper with the guys at airport, talking about soccers & sport trip (: Cant wait! Oh, & i heard LIVERPOOL's coming this july. HEH, im gonna slog my ass out to buy the best place tics!!! Put on that red jersey & sing ' You Never Walk Alone ' :D :D :D

Hmmm, after browsing through LB i realize i cant dress for some god sake :/ I wanna dye my hair again! ( again i know ) to lighter shade, should i should i? More shopping please & get away trip to BKK & Taiwan (:

PS : Cant wait for Kay to be back to visit the thrift store!!

PPS : Im very tired physically, I can sleep literally anywhere any moment & doing ultra sttupid stuff :/ I need sleeeeeep(s)

i lub/luv/<3 air-vri ba-di ! \m/

xoxo.Sleeping biu-tee

no. 5

Im really glad he took those efforts to remember today.
but.

xoxo.

Enough.

It gonna be friday tmr (: Cant wait for the weekend to arrive with all the programs line up. Life's been pretty good, not much hip cups finally or rather have i learn to see things from another point of view which makes me feel so much better. Im contended with what i have now from the girlf(s) , thou i still need love but girlf(s) love is enough i suppose <3 Thankyou girls for being there as always !

I need time for rest , the spliting headache that im getting every morning is killing me. I need to set aside 24 hours for sleeping i guess. I want a get away as well, from this boring island to somewhere beautiful & relaxing. Away from the busy city & get some good time resting my mind. Any takers for such trip? Prehaps Batam/KL/Genting first before Thailand & Taiwan.

4 more hours to shopping spree with that taitai , seriously cant wait ! whats more i just recieve my pay , spell double happiness. tmr will be seeing the girlfs & my princess. saturday girlfs outing & sunday soccer game. hmm, what could be better than these ?

oh ya, i need to get my camera repair & packed my room.
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Its the 5th once again, why does it feel a lil more different each time? Happy xxxxxx.

xoxo.

14th March

Cant wait for the 14th March to arrive (: Liverpool VS Man Utd ! Shall see how Liverpool trash them. HEHEHEHEHE.

Anyway, yesterday performance was alright except the part that i did wrong. Spend most of the time waiting & waiting & waiting but the boys were kinda crazy i guess? Pictures time.


Almost naked face with aunty hair -.-


Shoe cleaning service anyone ?







The before picture




My so sexy lacy socks (:


Changed !




No idea what the hell was this for ! HAHA




Favourtie.











Im tired already. will upload the rest tmr (:

xoxo,
Eileen