Night Like This

Haven been sleeping at the right timing , falling asleep only at wee hours and waking up less than eight hours later. Im tired , mentally tired & very much physically tired. How i wished i could really be the one who i protray to others and not the one that other dont see it.

Night like this makes me feel worthless , too many things surrounding my head and mind. Money issue 's driving me insane, i prolly make the worst mistake one month back. Relationship's on hold & i would say i love my life now despite i dont really have an answer to most question people promt me , and i really hope they could stop asking about it.

Sometimes i feel lonely or rather most of the time. I may be seems as a very busy person with endless people to meet but do i really want it that way? I envy those who have really great friends, being there for them and of cos giving them surprises. My birthday how many would even remember it , and the kind of surprises others are getting. It seems so much different. I know im sounding very emotional now , but i dont want to keep in inside anymore. Im bursting out any moments.

Everything is unfair, fuck.