a race against time

Im racing against time recently, how i wish i have 48hours a day with 24hours belonging to me and not on others/other things. 24hours to rest my mind & soul, let it recover from all the ' fights ' i have earlier on. sounds so wonderful isn't it but life doesn't always goes your life, its always about fighting for what you want & what you think its right, i hate fighting be it in any form, seriously.

im tired of rushing everyday, to school then to teach tuition and very soon i'll have to rush back for dance practice. i wouldnt mind doing all these, cos 1. school wise i have no choice , 2. tuition means moo-lahs & 3. dance is passion. but my world within myself seem to be crashing down a lil by a lil each day. horribleeeeeee.

3 years of poly life flow past just like this, everything that i could remember feels like it just happen a month back. stepping into the adult world still seems so hard for me, i wished i will never grow up. NIE haven return me a reply, so i guess the chances of me getting in there is zero. what to do next seems like a huge decision & i really cant make up my mind on what i wanna do next.

tuition is fun yet a very tedious job. fun because i like seeing how my student know more things because of me but tedious when they have problem remebering simple things and also constantly capturing their attention. :/ one of my student have problem reading & it's driving me insane when he couldn't even pronounce simple words such as ' do , not , with , which ' he's a primary 1 student by the way. my brain oh my brain, they feel so tired :(

hate the way how people judge one. partying doesnt means every girl goes to the club to hook up guys or better still to sleep with guys. that's prolly what most guys think? to hook up a whore in the club and fuck their night away, wake up cleaning their dicks and off they go, either MIA or taking the whore as a booty call. yes there are sluts out there who cant live without sex and would accept any stick that wants to enter their overly enlarge hole but that doesnt applies to all girls. least girls wouldnt wet their underwear while dancing with a guy while guys would steam when dancing with a girl, whats this? keeping your stick soft and to yourself would be the greatest respect to a girl, remember that.

time's running out , project time.

PS : have you got yourself a v day date? i haven, HAHAHAHA

xoxo,
Eileen