memories

Hello, my name is Eileen Fu Ying Ying & i'll be turning 21 this coming april 26th april. My mummy told me that she's going to cook and sponser for the foods, i am certainly touched because my family have never once celebrate my birthday for me which very often i thought they forgot about it. The reason why i am typing this down is because mummy accompained me to the doctor to collect my health report just now. The doctor say there's a small tumor pressing against one nerve in my brain and its gonna affect my memories. He doesnt know how long will it take for me to complete lose everything thats in my head and so neither do i cause i will forget it naturally without realizing it. Its such a joke, i thought such stuff would only happen in mama dramas, who knows it happen on me. Just how great everything could be. Dream come true in the worst way, i have always wished that i could forget about the unhappy past and moved on happily but little did i know, knowing that i am really gonna forget everything is making my world collaps. Now i know its not about losing someone you dear thats scary, it you knowing you will lost yourself someday thats scary. I will upload all my pictures into this place, in case i forget about the people who are dear to me, & of cos give all my usernames and password to the best pals to at least help me remember those happy and unhappy past. Tell me that i have the bestest friend in the world when i start forgetting about them & tell me that i have love this someone whole heartly for 4 years and he was the one who made me this strong.
As much as i want to remember the good and happy times, my brain lost its ability to do so.
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okay, i imagine the above part. but what if something like this happen someday?
people who read it, if you felt this sharp pain while reading it, thankyou for you treat me so dear to you that you dont wanna lose me, those who didnt, great for you. while typing it, i could feel my heart aching really badly, prehaps i never want to forget about anything in my life, be it good or bad.
my family's getting better each day & i should be happy about it. no wonder people always says, when god closes one door, he open another one for you. i should learn to be happier each day, i should learn to love myself a lil more each day, i really should.