a listening ear

for the past month(s), ive been carrying tons of weight on my back. sealing each emotions well, proving to others im really fine & how strong ive become. to date i realize, i was never once strong, in fact im getting more & more vulnerable each day.

how each day piece up my life, seeing myself a little more different as each day ends. i let people enter my life too easily now which piece up the part that im getting more vulnerable as each day comes t an end. it feels like i am being put t an environment that's open t hurt & im prone t get hurt. i thought not crying was a form of being strong but i was so wrong. strong physically is nothing, being strong in the mind is something & its also something which i doesn't have. vulnerable/strong, where do i stand?

its really amazing the people that stood by me now, i seriously thank you guys for the listennig ear. especially x, thank you for still being there listening t me & getting all so worried over me. i knew you would be the best person t hear everything of me , for prehaps youre the only person who will get so hyped up & start jumping all over, which make me sense the lil importance of me in you as a friend. thankyou for all the encouragment & most importanly the text just now. you lighten the burden on my back, thank you so much x (:

thank you star2 for being there as well & making me fall in love with royce, chocolate (:

yesterday night i did a really funny thing which makes me keep refreshing my email t check for new mail. i actually email my bestfriend & fyi i love emailing her (: min mei, i miss you hell lot, better ask me out soon. luv<3

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xoxo